Well... I attempted to find myself a little place to chill (with free wifi) so I could catch up on blogs and update my own. But... as it took me so long to finally get connected, I'm almost out of time now.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Well... I attempted to find myself a little place to chill (with free wifi) so I could catch up on blogs and update my own. But... as it took me so long to finally get connected, I'm almost out of time now.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Internet issues at my house these days... but I'll try to be back to regular posting soon.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Today I am throwing a bridal shower for my friend. I'm the maid of honor for her September 12th wedding. First we are going to dinner at BW3's (Eek!) and then games/snacks/presents/drinks at my apartment after. Yesterday I was definitely over my calories, but I was SO starving all day. Bah!
Today, my plan is to run to the store for a couple of things, then hit the gym, then i have to clean my ENTIRE house (Ugh!), bake cupcakes & cakes, and get ready for the shower. At least the gym and all the cleaning should burn lots of calories.
I'm just feeling like my willpower is weak the past few days, so that's a little scary.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Lost 2 more pounds this week. Yay! 212.2. Slowly but surely... I will get there.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I ran 1.52 miles straight! No walking! My farthest continuous run so far. Yay for me!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
This morning was my third 5K of the year. I really am still not sleeping very well at all. I tried to go to bed early last night but just had the hardest time falling asleep and staying asleep. I dragged my tired butt out of bed around 5:45 this morning. Never did I think that I'd be getting up at the butt crack of dawn to go running. And especially did I never think that I'd be excited to do it. I had the nervous energy all over again, despite the fact that this is my third time doing this. I ate my breakfast, grabbed my banana and Powerade and was out the door. There were a TON of ladies in this race. It was a sea of pink. (photo courtesy of the BFF. We run all the races together.)
Friday, July 31, 2009
After gaining a pound last week, I got things moving in the right direction again this week. I lost 2 pounds this week. I'm at 214.2. Yay!
I really need to keep things moving down. Can't wait to be in the 100's. I haven't been there since like 7 years ago.
So much stuff to write about... my rewards program, an odd smelling pie, the 5K tomorrow morning.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll have much more time. For now, I'm tired and need to rest up for the race. I'm a little nervous since I haven't ran much lately, but oh well.
Tomorrow at 7:15 I'll be starting my 3rd 5K of this year.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
... from all my baking this summer! Tonight was another night of baking. All this baking isn't going to be good for my weight loss venture, but it's good for my sanity. I'm just stressed a little and worried a lot lately. So, I guess the weight loss/exercise thing has taken a back seat for the past 2 weeks or so. I'm exhausted because I didn't sleep well last night. So, instead of going to the gym I stayed home tonight, played a little Wii Fit, watched the first episode of More to Love (which is so far very intriguing), and did some more baking.
Tonight was another first.... my first attempt at making homemade biscotti. It was a much longer process than I thought it would be. I had no idea that biscotti are twice-baked type of cookie. Still, I feel accomplished with all my "fancy" treats lately. And the people at work are loving me right now because I'm bringing in the treats so they can eat them all, instead of me eating them all.
Behold, the chocolate biscotti:
At least now I've got a basic foundation down for the biscotti and scone making. Now, I can start to experiment with flavors and ingredients. Ah, baking (when it's for myself and just for fun, not when I'm being paid to) soothes me.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Now, these may not be necessarily good for my body, but they were good for my soul. I was feeling a little down today so I tried to keep myself busy. Keeping myself busy took the form of baking. I totally heart baking. I'd never made scones before and they always seemed like something too "fancy" for me to make. I gave it a shot and made some chocolate chip scones. I ate one and I didn't think they were sweet enough. I guess scones aren't supposed to be super sweet?That's fine with me, but if I'm not going to add anymore sugar, then I think next time I will dial down the baking powder a little bit. I think it tends to make things taste a little bitter to me.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
My eating schedule seems to be off the norm today, so I ate an early dinner/late lunch... but I don't plan on eating a big dinner since I've got lots of things to do today and will be going to the Boyfriend's parents' house later for a little get together.
Well, this week was rough. I wasn't feeling well and was SUPER tired. I think it's almost time for that ugly TOM to rear it's head. So, I really haven't exercised much, and most days I ate a little more than I should have, and I slept A LOT! I tried to get things back under control towards the end of the week, but I still ended up with a big fat GAIN this week. Boo!!! I gained 1 pound. Time to put a stop to that business. I'm at 216.2 now and I definitely don't wanna get any higher.
Next week, I'm definitely back on track. My 3rd 5K run is this coming Saturday! I'm a little nervous, but not too bad. I'm getting used to the idea of doing one of these every month. I didn't run as much as I should have since the last race, but I definitely did better than I did between the 1st and 2nd race.
Anyway.... tonight I'm hanging with the boyfriend. We haven't seen each other in 6 days so I'm really looking forward to it.
Last night I saw "The Ugly Truth" with my sister. It was pretty good. I love Katherine Heigl and the movie had some really funny parts. Also... don't forget the cutie, Gerard Butler.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Saturday was tons of fun. Too many drinks were had and too much bad food was eaten this weekend. Blah. Now I have to try to make up for it.... despite the fact that I'm totally not in the mood. Hopefully I can get things back in gear this week. It was totally worth it though. I had quality time with my fabulous friends and my awesome boyfriend! Here are 2 of my favorite parts of the weekend.....
Natalie, Me, and Anna (Mrs. B) at the bar after going to the comedy club:
Me and my cutie-patootie boyfriend (who brought me 2 dozen pink roses that evening. What a smart boy!):
I got a Wii Fit for my birthday! Yay! I've been wanting one for a while... and my awesome friends pooled their money together and got me one. Woo hoo! Anybody else have one? Any game recommendations for the balance board?
Have a good week everyone!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
First, I only lost .4 pounds this week. Boo! That puts me at 215.2, which means I didn't meet that goal of 215 by my birthday. Darn close though. Next week I'm really going to work hard and hopefully have a loss of over 2 pounds (at least that's what I'm hoping for). Though tonight may work against that goal as tonight is my birthday party. Me, the Boyfriend and 7 other friends are going to a comedy club across the river in Kentucky then we are going several bars/debaucherous (is that a word? It is now.) places. I'm sure some debaucherous behavior will ensue (such as me consuming empty calories in the form of birthday drinks, and hopefully no bad food!). Should be a fun time though. I got a new summer dress type thing to wear to the party (going shopping for shoes later today! Fun!). The best part was that I bought the dress from the REGULAR WOMEN'S SIDE OF THE STORE! Yay for me! That hasn't happened in quite some time. So, hopefully I'll feel like a hottie when I put it on, just knowing that it came from the regular side of the store. That fact is enough to put some major pep in my step.
For lunch I had an almost exact repeat of last nights salad (minus the Morning Star veggie cake, added some mushrooms and zucchini) and I forgot to take a picture of it. Bah!
For dinner I decided to make stuffed peppers. They were fabulous! In mind I had ground turkey, mushrooms, zucchini, peppers, onions, and a tiny bit of cheese on top. Served with brown rice.
All in all... I had some pretty tasty food yesterday. I will definitely be making those peppers again.
Today I am going to the gym, going shopping, and clean up the apartment a little bit.... then my birthday extravaganza starts. Yippee!!!
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I'm scared. I don't really have that much reason to be, but for some reason every time I've peeked at the scale this week, it's been a little higher than last week and not moving a whole lot. I know that based on what I have eaten this week, mathematically I should have a loss tomorrow, but the flippin' scale isn't moving like I want it to. I was really just aiming for like a 1 pound loss this week since it's my birthday week and I knew I'd be splurging a little bit. (Went to the Mongolian Grill last night with my mom, sister, and Mrs. B. Then went and saw the new Harry Potter movie. Yay!)
The only thing I can think of that I did differently this week is that I started eating fiber bars for breakfast again. I hadn't eaten any bars for like 3-4 weeks before this past Monday. I think next week I won't have any and we'll see what happens.
I had an awesome salad for dinner tonight. The picture doesn't do it justice. I had some bagged salad mix (romaine, iceberg, radicchio, etc) with a crumbled Morning Star Farms Southwestern Style Veggie Cake, carrots, a little bit of corn, some salsa, and some homemade guacamole that I made. I'm trying to incorporate a little avocado into my diet since it's loaded with the good fats (despite the fact that it's high calorie/high fat). I swear, it just looks a weird color in the picture... it was delicious!
I may do something along these lines again tomorrow when I attempt Amy's challenge of the week... eating clean for one day.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Today I turned 27 years old. I feel old. 30 is just around the corner. But despite that... I still love my birthday. The week of my birthday has always been a big deal to me and I don't feel one bit ashamed for letting everyone know just how excited I get about my birthday! I love it! It's the one time of year that I can guilt all my friends into getting together at one time to do something fun. This year a couple have crapped out on me (but I guess I can let it slide since one just had a baby 2 weeks ago and the other is 8 months pregnant. lol).
So today... I was bought lunch. I had a healthy splurge and got a whole wheat tuna wrap and some pretzels. It was ok... nothing too spectacular, but still at least it was something new and different (and free! Thanks Tonja!)
That's all for now. More about my birthday later.... yes, there will be at least a couple birthday post. It's a week long celebration in my world. :-)
Friday, July 10, 2009
Well, despite the fact that I didn't do as great this week with the eating and exercise... I still had pretty good results. Down another 2.8 pounds this week! Woo hoo! That puts me at 215.6. I had a goal of 215 by my birthday (which is this coming Tuesday!) and now I think it's totally possible.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I just ran my farthest (and longest time) consecutively!!! I really can't even believe it myself! I ran 1.1 miles (14 minutes) straight with no stopping!!! Not a big deal to a lot of people, but a MAJOR milestone for this chubby girl.
I never thought I would be able to do that. Really... even doing the C25K program, running a whole mile straight was still seeming like an impossible goal for me.
I don't think I've ever felt more accomplished or proud of myself. So, yeah... I'm tooting my own horn right now! Yay for me!!!
Monday, July 6, 2009
You probably know Joe. (a.k.a.- T.J. or Trader Joe). Well, I guess it's not cheating if my boyfriend knows about it, right? haha.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
This week our weekly challenge for Amy's 15 Week Challenge was to recreate an "unhealthy" meal in a healthier way. I chose to do pizza... because I love pizza. And I don't get to eat it too often anymore
-Trader Joe's frozen Naan (one piece of naan makes a pretty decent sized slice of pizza).
-Trader Joe's marinara sauce (though I'm sure you could use whatever sauce you like).
-Assorted veggies. (I had mushrooms, green peppers and banana peppers on mine).
-Low-fat shredded mozzarella cheese.
Just build your slice, pop it in the oven at 350 degrees for 15-20 minutes and there ya go.
(Please excuse my crappy picture. Took it with my phone.)
They are darn tasty!!! Usually I eat mine with a side salad and one slice of pizza and it totally fills me up. Depending on what sauce, cheese and veggies you use... one large slice is around 200-250 calories. Even the Boyfriend liked it!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Did my second 5K race this morning with my BFF, Mrs. B! Yay for us!
The last race I finished in 46:48. It looks like (still waiting on the "official" results) I finished this one in 42:42!!! Holy crap, people! I shaved like 4 minutes off my last time! Woo hoo!
And now... I think it's time for a nap.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Well.... It's weigh-in day! For the first time I was excited for it to get here. I lost 3 pounds this week! I can't believe it! Well, I worked really hard this week, so maybe I can believe it. I don't know if maybe last week I was just carrying around some water weight, or maybe it's all the bananas I've been eating (I've never really liked bananas but been trying to learn to eat them to help with all the sore muscles and stuff from exercising... which I've done 4 times this week so far!), or maybe it's because I've been really good about keeping my calories low and eating often to keep my metabolism up. Or maybe it's just a combination of all 3. No matter what caused it... I'll take it. This is the least I have weighed in 3 years!
I joined Amy's 15 Week Challenge. Unfortunately I signed up and sent her my weight before I had found out that I gained a pound last week. So for the 15 Week Challenge, I really only lost 2 pounds this week based on what I had told her was my starting weight. Still pretty awesome though.
This week was especially tough because of all the obstacles at work. There was a free ice cream social (and I gave my ticket for free ice cream away to a co-worker). There was a 4th of July potluck lunch. I made this cake for the lunch.
It was very well received by everyone. Then I got hounded to get some food. So I went and put some food on a plate (to appease my saboteurs) and then gave it to a co-worker as well. All in all, I think I did pretty great resisting the temptation.
I just really want to get past the "wall" that I always get stuck at. Technically I am past the 219-220 hump that I always start my self-sabotage around, but I won't consider myself truly past it until I reach at least 215 or so. I can hear the 100s calling my name. Only 18.4 pounds away.
Tomorrow is my 2nd 5K race of the year. I'm still a little scared. I know I still won't be able to run the whole thing. But I want to finish in under 45 minutes at least. I finished the last one in 46:48 . I'm still stuck on week 4 of my C25K. It just never seems to get much easier so I'm reluctant to move on to Week 5 but next week I'm hoping to give it a real shot. Tomorrow is also a 4th of July BBQ at the Boyfriends parents' house. Hopefully I can survive it without undoing all the hard work I've done this week... at least I'll get in 5K before all the unhealthy food comes looking for me.
That's all for now, kids. Have a fabulous weekend!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Not gonna lie... this weekend I have ate a TON of terrible stuff. (which as mentioned in my previous post, I believe is some form of self-sabotage.) However, now I'm hoping to get back on track... again and move past it. I ate so much bad stuff that today I actually started to crave healthy things.
In happier/healthier news... Last week I had bought some 100 calorie packs of almonds and walnuts mixed. They were pretty good. It made me realize how much I loved almonds. I had no idea! So, this time when I went to the store I decided to just get the packs with only almonds. Then I saw these...
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Well... yesterday was weigh-in day for me. I gained a pound. This always happens. Of all the times I have attempted to lose weight, I always, ALWAYS get stuck around 220-219. Once I start to get close to breaking that barrier, somehow I always sabotage myself. It would seem that since I've become aware of this problem, that I could overcome it.... but that's not happening. So once again, I got close... and now I've gained a pound.
I don't know what makes me do it. I'm struggling to stop that pattern. I'm trying not to let 1 pound be a big deal, to keep on pushing, to not give up like I always do.
It's a life long struggle, and that really sucks.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
... I think I'm joining the movement. Yes, I am on the road to losing weight... and I intend to keep on going to make myself a healthier person and feel better. But over the past year or two I've come to accept myself more than I ever did in the past. Can't hurt to encourage other people. Everyone could use a kind word now and then.
Check out Operation Beautiful
Monday, June 22, 2009
I don't want to go to the gym. Not one tiny, little, microscopic bit!
(But.... I'm going to go anyway.) :-P
Saturday, June 20, 2009
That's me. I'm an over-eater. I've tried to get a handle on it since I am trying to lose weight afterall. Today I did pretty good.... but then since it was summer I decided to indulge in some summer "treats". Fresh watermelon and homemade iced tea. (and yes, that is a Hungry Girl book on the coffee table. Good stuff, you should read it and/or visit the website.)
The problem is... I over ate. Too much watermelon and too many bagel chips. Now I'm too stuffed (I hate that feeling) and bloated from all the sodium in the bagel chips. Blah.
Bad, chubby girl, bad!
Oh well... learned my lesson for next time. (hopefully)
Now I'm off to sit outside in this lovely 95 degree heat we have going on here in Cincinnati and watch the Reds and the White Sox.
Well, I lost 1 .6 pounds this week! Yay for me!
Got to hang out and have dinner with the Boyfriend last night. We went to the Mongolian Grill which I am VERY excited about. It was delicious! Thanks to my BFF, Mrs. B, I found out that on their website you can build your meal and see the nutritional value… so it wasn't too unhealthy. I loaded up on the veggies. I still had about 3/4 cup of rice, but at least I picked the steamed brown rice. Today I went and picked up my bridesmaids dress for my friend Tonja's wedding and I was scared it wouldn't fit, as they ordered me a size 16 (and often those dresses run small) and I can barely fit into a size 16 pants. But...... it TOTALLY fit! Woo hoo! It's a little snug in the stomach area, but I have 12 weeks till the wedding so I hope to lose another 15 pounds by then.
Tonight the Boyfriend and I are going to a baseball game with our friends, Tonja and Jason. Should be fun. Sunday I plan to hang out with my little sister and do lots of laundry.
These are my current favorite snack. Trying not to inhale the whole bag of bagel chips, though even if I did... it's only be 280 calories and 4 grams of fat. Yum.
Randomness: Here's a pretty cake I made this week for a guy at work. It was his birthday… and I only ate a tiny little slice, I swear.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
So… this week hasn't been as good as I had hoped. It was hard to get back on the wagon. I really haven't eaten terribly though. I was at around 1750 calories each for Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday I did a little better and managed to stay at 1500. Today was rough (as I was taken out to lunch at work), but I still hope to keep it at 1600. Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I'm really hoping for at least a 1 pound loss, though I won't be surprised if it's not that much.
I haven't exercised much this week. I totally suck. I should have worked out more and I have no good reason that I didn’t, except that I was tired and lazy. For your entertainment, here is one story of why I am so tired. The Boyfriend stayed over 2 nights this week. He was super tired and true to form, fell fast asleep and started snoring. (Side note: I'm convinced that forcing someone to listen to someone else snore when they are tired should be some form of torture used in war. It drives me mad!) He's usually pretty good about me waking him up and saying "Roll over. You're snoring." He usually just turns over onto his stomach and the snoring stops. I don't know if it's because he was so tired or what…. But that wasn't happening this time. He says he remembers none of these conversations.
Me: Dude, you're snoring.
BF: (says nothing, rolls to his side, which doesn't really help his snoring situation)
Me: (said in a very unfriendly tone) Hey, one of us is about to go sleep on the couch tonight. Guess who it's gonna be?
BF: Sorry. (rolls over)
Me: (elbows the BF) Hey, roll over.
BF: What? Huh?
Me: ROLL OVER! You're still snoring!
BF: Ok. (Just lays there and doesn't roll over… starts snoring again)
Me: (at this point I'm sitting up in the bed and speak to him in a very calm tone) Seriously… I am about to smother you with a pillow.
BF: Oh, sorry. (Rolls over)
So yeah…. at least he always says he's sorry.
Now, I'm off to take a nap.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Yup, I tried to resist... but I fell off the wagon again this weekend. Friday I did great. Saturday started out great, but then it was just all downhill. I had a great time with my 2 pregnant friends (and the 18 month old daughter of one of them) though.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Somehow (not sure how, but I'll definitely take it!) I am down 2.6 pounds this week! Woo hoo!
Let's just hope I can stay on track this weekend. Weekends are always hard anyway... but this weekend will definitely be hard as I'll be traveling to Columbus to visit with 2 of my friends that are currently both pregnant.
So, I have to keep in mind that though they will be "eating for 2" that doesn't mean it's ok for me to do it also.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
... and it's only like 60 calories!!!
~ Made with unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze, my new Walden Farms peanut spread, fat free/sugar free chocolate pudding mix, and ice. Yum!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
So much food to blog about and so little time.....
I also FINALLY found some Vitatops. I'd been looking at all the stores around here. I'm going to give those a try tomorrow.... though I'm sure I'll love them.
Then today I had to make this for work (and then also try not to eat the whole thing!):
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I always have tons of things I want to blog about, but never seem to have the time. Anyway, here's the story of my first 5K race:
My official time was 46:48. Before the race I told myself that I wanted to finish in under 45 minutes, but I would settle for under 50 minutes. I guess that's exactly what I got. I hope to finish the next race (even though I don't know what that course is like yet) in under 45 definitely. The morning didn't start out great. It was like a comedy of errors.....
The Boyfriend and I got up early thinking that we were going to have a good breakfast so I'd have some decent fuel for the race. He was going to get up and make me pancakes and turkey sausage... but somehow we didn't end up having enough time. It was a sad state of affairs in my kitchen that morning. We ended up with 3 pancakes and that was it. So I inhaled them as we were running out the door (the Boyfriend let me have them all) and grabbed a bottle of Powerade. Then as we're about half a mile from home, I realize that I left my bib for the race at home so we have to turn around and get it (and we're already running a little late at this point). When we get back to my apartment I jump out of the car (and almost get accidentally hit by the car), run in and get my number and we're back on the road. We are on the way to the race and I'm sorting some music on my mp3 player to prepare for the race and we somehow pass up our exit on the highway... so we have to drive 5 miles up to the next exit, get off the highway, turn around, and get back on the highway. We made it to the race in time since we had planned on getting there early, but I arrived a bit flustered and aggravated.
As we were waiting for the race to start I was getting VERY nervous and kept thinking "I don't wanna do this anymore"... though I knew I would have to.
Then we were off......
It turned out to be much harder than I thought! I knew it would be hard... but I was still shocked. The worst part was it wasn't like I was so out of breath or my heart was racing... but that running on the pavement and the hills make my legs sooooo tired. I'd slow down and be ready to start running again, and as soon as my legs would hit the pavement my knee would hurt and my legs would feel instantly exhausted again. However, I pushed through. I didn't do as well as I hoped I would and I had to keep motivating myself in my head the whole time. (even thought of The Biggest Loser this past season and when they did that whole 26 mile marathon.) At least I finished. I can say I did it... and I can get ready for the next race. Mrs. B and I finished 1st and 2nd in our age group.... though we were the only ones in our age group. hahaha. But, I still got a medal for being 1 out of 2.
I started a "5K Wall" above my desk at home. Mrs. B and I are aiming to do 1 5K race every month from now until October. So, hopefully by the end of this year my wall will be full and I will be able to really, truly run. I want to be a runner. I never thought I would be able to even come close to being one... and now I feel like it could be in my near future.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Well, this morning was our first ever 5K! Whoa... it was harder than I thought it was gonna be. My BFF, Mrs. B, and I are hoping to do one 5K race every month from now until October... so I've got to really start training hard to get better at this stuff. Anyway, more on the race later. I'm still tired and recovering. haha. But here's a picture of me finishing the race...
Wonder Woman, Stormy Vawn, gave me and 7 other bloggers an award. Aw, thanks! Her blog is totally inspiring and makes you feel like we aren't alone in this weight-loss/get fit journey that a lot of us are on. You should definitely check it out.
So, the award "rules" state:
These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.
So, these are 8 who often inspire, motivate, and entertain me.
~Breaking up with Burgers
~Ash is Fit
~Fat Girl Unleashed
~Angie All the Way
~A Daunting Tale of Scale Warfare
~One Pound at a Time
~Kate is Losing It
~Let's Get Fit!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Well, I took a HUGE break from running... like a month, seriously! I was highly disappointed in myself. Since I am on vacation from work this week I decided that I had to make myself go to the gym almost everyday. Well... that didn't happen. My first trip to the gym was Wednesday (yesterday) and I tried to restart my C25K on week 3. Week 3 is 90 seconds of running, 90 seconds of walking, 3 minutes of running, 3 minutes of walking... then repeat.
Man, oh, man... it was HARD! I couldn't believe it. I left the gym feeling defeated and down, thinking to myself "I'll never be able to jog a whole mile straight. I suck." Despite all that, I got up today and was still determined to go. (Our 5K is in like a week and a half!!!). So I went, and completed week 3 with no problem! I guess my body just needed a little jump start and then it was ready to go again?
So, I completed week 3 and then decided just to run until I felt pretty winded. I made it 2/3 of a mile (8 minutes) without stopping!!! Yay for me! That's probably not a big deal to people who are in great shape... but that's a huge deal for me!!! I feel accomplished!
This weekend I am going camping with my friends and the Boyfriend. Should be fun. I hope to at least get in a little jog during the weekend. Then, when I come back I am going to try to go to the gym almost every day since the 5K is next weekend. I really want to be able to jog a whole mile before we do the 5K. I won't be able to run the whole 3.1 miles straight, but I want to finish in 45 minutes or less.
Again... Yay me! :-)
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I always feel so much happier and better when things are clean, as I'm sure a lot of people do. The ironic thing is that for as much as I hate mess, I hate cleaning just as much. My life and apartment have felt so cluttered lately... and I hate it.
So, I'm on vacation from work all week this week and have decided to accomplish all the cleaning and organizing that I had planned during my last vacation from work (during which I accomplished absolutely nothing). Yesterday was a loss. I ate WAY too much, probably gained like 3 pounds in 1 day and didn't do a whole lot besides make some rockin' healthy enchiladas for dinner.
Today I woke up early to say goodbye to the Boyfriend when he left for work, but then I couldn't fall back asleep. So I stayed up and cleaned. I washed EVERY dish I own (because most of them were dirty) and then cleaned out my fridge. Blech! I don't think I've done that since I moved in this apartment. Gross! But I did it and then washed all the resulting dirty tupperware/dishes from cleaning out the fridge. This is now what my poor, sad, empty fridge looks like.
Ah, yes.... the essentials of life: cans of Diet Mt. Dew, coffee, beer, eggs, strawberries and fat free Cool-whip. Seriously?!?! It looks like my fridge in college! Who knew I actually had so little real food in there?
I HAVE to go to the gym today. Our 5K is in less than 2 weeks. I definitely won't be able to run the whole thing. I've given up on that dream. However, I would at least like to run half of it. I gotta get a serious move on!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tara was robbed of her victory! I'm sad she didn't win. She was so close! She had won more challenges than anyone and never fell below the yellow line. I wish she had won, but she's still my favorite... and totally amazes me.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
I haven't blogged in a while... things are just busy and blah lately.
I haven't been keeping up with my C25K. I haven't been eating great. Somehow I have managed not to gain any weight... even lost like .4 pounds. That can probably be attributed to all the stomach problems I've had lately though. Couldn't actually keep much food in my body. I just haven't been feeling well lately (as usual).
I blame the tumor. I blame the tumor for everything these days though.The doctor has recommended that I have an abdominal myomectomy to remove it. Having major surgery scares me, but at the same time... I am so frustrated and angry about never feeling good and having this thing, that I think I'm going to just do the surgery. I'm just scared to have it because it could mean no children for me, but at this point the thing is taking up so much space that leaving it in isn't going to help me much either. (and it's making my life miserable).
That's all for now.... I'm tired and feel gross. So I'm going to eat dinner and go to bed. Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still here. Hopefully soon I'll be back to my old self.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I had a girls' day out today with my BFF, Anna. (I even got to take a half-day of vacation from work). I've just been feeling down the past few weeks and thus my diet and exercise has suffered the past few days. After our little road trip today I feel renewed and much happier. She's the best! I had fun! We went to the outlet malls and had a grand ol' time without spending much money.
Then we took an impromptu trip to Trader Joe's. I had never been there, but had been dying to go. The closest one to me is about 15-20 minutes away though. We went and I was SUPER surprised! The prices are pretty reasonable. They have TONS of healthy/organic options that are also flavorful.... and they have a lot of unique things. I'm SO excited. I only spent like 20 bucks while we were there.... but got quite a bit of stuff. Lots of new meals and snacks to try.
Definitely more on this topic later!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
I've never had polenta before, but since nothing lately sounds good, I've been wanting to try new things. I found this at my new favorite produce/natural foods store down the street... sundried tomato and garlic polenta.
Well, I only lost .8 pounds this week. Not as much as I had hoped, but at least the numbers are still going down. Considering that I couldn't work out much last week, I guess a .8 is pretty good.
It's getting a little harder this week to eat healthy for some reason. I've been feeling much closer to giving in to bad things most days. But I'm trying to resist and find healthier versions of things I love. I think that maybe I'm just in a food rut as it's hard to eat healthy and quick, and I haven't felt like cooking much lately.
I found these at the grocery store....
I know they have had them in other brands for a while, but even the small portion in those brands wasn't healthy. Since this is the slow churned it's much lower in fat and calories. And the small size helps me, as I've always been a girl who could eat a whole pint of ice cream in one sitting.
I went shopping today at this awesome produce store near me that I never realized existed. They have lots of fresh and organic things. They also have a ton of products that I suppose could be deemed "unusual" or "ethnic foods"... or at least things I have a hard time finding in my regular store. I'll let you know how the new foods/recipes turn out.
Have a great rest of the weekend!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
So, I only lost .4 pounds last week, but that's better than I had thought as I had done very badly the weekend before that.
Last weekend I tried to keep things in check so they didn't get as out of hand. I didn't do a whole lot better, but overall it was an improvement (despite it being Easter weekend and being surrounded with bad food and lots of candy).
I haven't been able to make it to the gym much this week so far, so I'm behind on my C25K. Last Saturday I went and did my Week 3: Workout 3 (and then some) and must have overdid it again or something because this week I have been plagued by a hip injury. I went on Monday and barely made it through about 15 minutes of run/walking. I had to quit. My hip hurt so bad that I was about to cry. Tuesday it still hurt so I tried to take it easy and just did some slow walking and some arm/ab strength training. Tonight, I didn't go to the gym at all.... which totally sucks. I have done very well with my eating this week though. That part has almost become a habit. I want bad things ALL the time. There is NO doubt about that. And I'm always close to almost giving in.... but then I know how bad I would feel after and I think to myself "I choose not to be fat anymore!" And I turn the food down. This gets harder on the weekends though, I have to admit.
It's so weird that I used to have to try to force myself to go to the gym twice a week and now I hate if I miss one day during the week. My hip feels a little better tonight, so I'm hoping that tomorrow I will be able to start c25K Week 4: Workout 1.... which is going to be SO hard.
Wish me luck!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
After trying all week to recover from the damage I did last weekend, I think I did pretty well. I stayed under 1400 calories every day and I went to the gym 3 days in a row. Tonight I burned over 600 calories (according to the machines at the gym) and did 4 miles! My C25K workout was a little rough since I was so tired, but I finished it and then did some extra. Overall, I'd say it was a good last chance workout. I am really hoping to have at least lost a pound this week, but with how crazy things were last weekend, I wouldn't be surprised if I just maintained.
I just downloaded all of Jillian Michaels' Podcast and can't wait to listen to them and put them on my mp3 player. She's my absolute favorite thing about The Biggest Loser every season. I love her!!! If I had a bunch of money, I'd totally try to get her as my trainer.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I've learned a lot today about my heart rate. The stronger your heart is, the more blood it pumps with every beat. So if you are in really good shape, your heart will have to beat less to pump the amount of blood that your body needs. It works more efficiently the stronger it gets.
I remember back in school when they would teach you how to take your pulse. My resting heart rate was always in the 100 bpm (beats per minute) range. And everyone just always told me "that's ok. Girls hearts beat faster than guys hearts. You're fine." I was fine, I mean.... for the most part. Even as I got a little older, I always remember my resting heart rate being in the 90s at least. Today I learned that the average woman's heart rate should be around 75 bpm. The normal range is from 60-100, but they say that if your resting heart rate is consistently over 100 bpm, then you should see a doctor. Now, when I was a freshman in college, I know mine was always hovering around that 100-110 range... and that's not ok.
It's true that women's heart rates are usually slightly higher than men's. I would assume that's because stereotypically our bodies are smaller, so our hearts would be slightly smaller, so they would have to work a little harder. (but that's just a guess).
Anyway, today I decided to take my resting heart rate. The first time I did it, I got 67 bpm. I thought "that can't be right." So I took it again, and this time it was 76 bpm. (probably because I got myself all worked up thinking that 67 had to be wrong.) I'm totally impressed with my little hard working heart. Somehow, it's managed to get stronger. Which, I guess I kinda had some hints it was doing that, with how much easier things have gotten lately. Not that exercising is easy for me, but it is getting easier than I ever thought it would be, especially running. It makes me happy to know that not only am I doing this to lose weight (which will make me feel and look better) but that internally I am actually getting healthier and stronger. It makes me feel more in control of my health... which after I found out about 2 months ago that I have a Fibroid tumor, I wasn't feeling very optimistic about my health at all.
And here's a random fact that really amazed me: Lance Armstrong's heart is in such good shape that his resting heart rate is only 32 beats per minute!!! Wow!
So, how is your heart shaping up? :-)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Since so many of you are brave enough to do it.... I've finally faced the music and put my actual weight on the side with my Weigh-Ins. It's really hard for me to admit how much I weigh to people. But I'm doing this in the hope that this will be the last time in my life that I will ever have to be ashamed of how much I weigh.
So, I did very bad on Saturday, Sunday and even pretty much Monday. It's had me down in the dumps. Today I desperately needed to get back on track or risk slipping into this unhealthy eating/no exercise rut for a few weeks and gaining back the weight I have lost.
So, despite the fact that I'm tired, and don't feel well, and all the other excuses I've got going in my head... I dragged myself to the gym. Today I did the C25K Week 3: Workout 1. This means 90 seconds of running, 90 seconds of walking, 3 minutes of running, 3 minutes of walking (then repeat). I was just telling the BFF, Anna, today that I was feeling like running was impossible and I was starting to get scared if I could finish the 5k in under 60 minutes! Then I went to the gym and finished this C25K workout with no problem. Yay for me! I know that it's not a big feat for some people who can just run a few miles with no problem, but I've never been a runner. I never thought I could be a runner. I could do the elliptical until the cows come home... but not running. I used to get winded really quickly and my knees, ankles, and shins always hurt. Well, those things still hurt but I'm powering through. I even just ran to see how long I could run and I made it 4.5 minutes. I felt like I could do a little more, but didn't want to hurt myself. And that was at a speed of 4.7, which is a little faster than I have been running. I'm really hoping to be able to run the whole 5K without stopping, but that's a BIG goal. June 7th.... here I come!
Every time I finish one of the C25K workouts, I feel my confidence get boosted just a little more. (Now, if only I didn't have to make up for all the damage I did this weekend. Blah) My plan is to go to the gym both Wednesday and Thursday this week.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
This weekend was a big ol' failure in the diet and exercise department. I feel disappointed in myself. Blah.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Before I begin: Apparently there was a problem with people being unable to comment on my blog... but I think I've fixed it now. (Let's hope).
Today has been a rough day. The boyfriend and I had a hectic morning (a slight lack of planning on his part created a bump in my usual morning routine, which didn't make me happy).
At my work and there is like this little walkway between our buildings, but it's like an overpass above the street below. So it's probably at least 30 feet up in the air. Anyway, I totally accidentally dropped my cell phone off of it while leaning against the railing and the front of it shattered into a million pieces. It still works (kind of) for the most part. But definitely not enough for me to deal with it for the next year. Blah. So, then work was crazy and I was grumpy.
I SO didn't want to go to the gym tonight. I am freaking EXHAUSTED! My whole body hurts and I'm tired and in a bad mood. But I went anyway and did my C25K Week 2: Workout 2..... and geez, it was ROUGH! I did manage to finish the whole 25 mins(5 min walking warm-up, 20 minutes of alternating running 90 seconds, walking 120 seconds) but I wasn't thrilled about it and I really had to push to get through those 90 second runs. Right now it seems absolutely impossible for me to run a 5K.
I am feeling down and defeated today. It's taking all my willpower not to just go eat pizza or something equally unhealthy for dinner. I've always been an emotional eater. I thought I did well this week with my eating and I worked out at least 3 times this week (which is way more than usual for me) and I've been taking the stairs at work. However, somehow I only lost 1 pound this week. 1 sad, little, lonely pound. At least it's a pound in the right direction. It's just hard to stay motivated today.
Hope you guys had a better day than I did.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Just got home from the gym from doing my C25K Week 2: Workout 1. I was soooooo tired today and I hadn't ran since Saturday, so I was a little scared. In week 2 you are running 90 seconds and walking 2 minutes. You alternate and do that for 20 minutes. And........ it wasn't that tough, surprisingly! I'm not saying it was a walk in the park, but I finished it with no problem. I felt that I could probably have ran longer than 90 seconds or sometimes waited less than 2 minutes.... but decided not to push it. After all, the c25k people made that schedule for a reason. And with my recent injuries, I need to not push myself too hard. I had learned some special stretches that are supposed to loosen up your shins and prevent/help shin splints. So, I did those yesterday, today at my desk while at work, and then right before my work out. The shin pain did decrease. It's not completely gone, but it wasn't too bad until near the end of the work out. There is still a decent amount of pain for about 10 minutes after my work out.... but at least it seems to be getting better. Time to go put ice on my shins!
P.S. - I love running! Yay! I always feel so spectacular and accomplished afterward!
So, let's start with my weekend. It was hard to eat below 1500 calories per day... as usual. I tried to keep it under control. However, Sunday was really hard since I had dinner at The Boyfriend's parents' house.
Saturday I went shopping for bridesmaid's dresses with my friend, Tonja. When it came time to get measured and order them, the saleswoman measured me as a 16! Yay! This also meant that I had narrowly avoided having to pay the "plus size fee" that starts with size 18 dresses. That would have costed me an extra $30 had I had to get the size 18. The 16 will be a little snug right now, but by the wedding I should be down to about a 14, so then I'll just have to get the dress taken in some. I've never not had to pay the extra money for plus size dresses. This is a first... and super exciting!
I weighed myself early (when I've been trying to wait until Friday) and somehow it says I've gained a pound, which I know can't be right. Even on the days that I cheat, I still don't go over what it would take to just maintain my weight and I've been below 1500 calories everyday this week. I'm hoping it's water weight. I've recently started taking birth control pills and I think they may be causing me to retain some extra water. Hopefully it will disappear by the Friday 20/20 Challenge weigh-in.
On Monday I went to a Zumba class with my friends Anna, Tonja, and Jason. I was a little nervous as I'm not a super coordinated person and it's kind of like a latin cardio dance class. It didn't turn out nearly as bad as I thought. I was able to catch on pretty quickly. I may not do the moves with "flair" but I at least get the technical aspects down and complete them. It is QUITE the workout. It felt awesome! And it was fun. That 45 minute workout just flew by. If you want to find a class in your area, you can check the Zumba website.
I'm pretty sure that what's going on in my shins is most likely shin splints. They are not fun. So, I've been trying to only exercise every other day until they get stronger and heal. So, I haven't ran since Saturday. I'm doing my c25k Week 2: Workout 1 tonight. It'll be interesting to see how tough it is. I'm really starting to enjoy running though! If you are super new to running (like me), I would recommend reading the "Complete Book of Women's Running". I got it on Amazon.com used for like $8. I like to read books on new hobbies, things in my life, etc. I'm a nerd. :-)
Friday, March 27, 2009
So, this week was pretty productive. I started the c25k program with my friends, Anna and Tonja. Which turned out to be harder than I thought. The first time I tried running on the treadmill at the gym (previously I had been trying to run outside) I think I tried to run too fast. So, on Thursday (after letting the muscle I pulled on Tuesday heal some) I took it down a notch and ran slower. I finished the whole session: 5 minutes of walking for a warm up. Then 20 minutes of alternating between 60 seconds running, then 90 seconds walking. I even did a little extra at the end on Thursday since I had to quit early on Tuesday because of my pulled muscle.
Turns out that running is much harder than I thought. I knew it would be rough, but geesh! About half way through my Week 1, Workout 2 I wanted to quit. But here is where they get ya.... It seems like the longest 60 seconds of your life when you are running and see those seconds slowly ticking by on the treadmill. But then it's over and you have 90 seconds of walking. Somehow, by the time those 90 seconds are almost up, you start to feel like "Yeah, I could probably run another minute." And that's the trick to it... just keep on pushing and somehow you always feel like you have another minute of running left in you. Running a 5k still seems impossible though, but I'm not giving up. It makes me feel sad to know that my heart and body are in such poor shape. But that's just even more motivation to exercise and eat healthy.
For food this week I did pretty spectacular, I think. Most days I was at or below 1400 calories. I like to think of myself as the queen of convenient and healthy dinners. I am by no means a gourmet cook, so they may not be the fanciest or best tasting meals, but they are pretty good... especially for during the week when I have no motivation to cook and used to just eat Lean Cuisines all the time. But now I am trying to eat foods that are fresher and have less preservatives (supposedly to help control my uterine tumor).
Some of you may not really care for this info, but then again it may spark dinner ideas for others so I'm going to include a list of my dinners:
Tuesday we had breakfast for dinner: Turkey sausage, whole wheat toast, whole wheat waffles, egg beaters with some fat free cheddar cheese. It was tasty.
Wednesday we had: grilled chicken breast with steamed rice and veggies.
Thursday we had: Side salads followed by whole wheat pasta with 1/2 cup garden vegetable marinara sauce, and these cute little crunchy breadsticks that are in the salad aisle at the grocery store. Only 60 calories in 3 of them. This is my boyfriend's plate. He had cheese, I did not. He's trying to lose some weight also, but he's allowed more calories than I am.
Not sure what I'll put on the menu for tonight, but I'm thinking probably grilled cheese (with low fat cheese) and soup.
Anyway... on to the results:I weighed in this morning and I've lost 2.8 pounds this week! Yay! I'm sure I could have worked a little harder to get 3 pounds even, but I think I did pretty freaking awesome this week.
Let's just hope I can make it through the weekend, that's always the toughest in terms of willpower to eat right and exercise. And I have dinner with The Boyfriend's parents on Sunday and I know they aren't going to make anything really healthy so I guess I'll just have to work out extra that day.
The BFF, Anna, said something about make a goals chart with dates/events and how much weight she would like to lose by that point. So, I thought I'd make one too. I already had one in my head, but I put it in writing now. I think I can acheive these goals. I've already surpassed the one for April 1st. Yay! I tried to add the chart on here, but it looked too blurry and you couldn't read it. So, I posted it at the very bottom of my blog page (if you scroll all the way down), even though it's still kind of blurry there.
Have a GREAT weekend everyone!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I had started the C25K program last week, but didn't stick with it very well. So this week myself and my friends Anna and Tonja decided to start as well. So we are all starting this week officially.
And then today at the gym... I pulled a groin muscle. Ugh! I hope it doesn't take me out of commission for too long. I need to work out!
I did manage to stay under 1400 calories for today though, so at least that's good. And the temptations at work are always plentiful with the people in my office.
I met the girls in my buddy group for the 20/20 Challenge. They both seem awesome and I hope we all keep each other motivated. I have faith that we can do it. :-)
Monday, March 23, 2009
Had a minor lapse over the weekend. I did well on Saturday, but then Sunday came.... and my enemy appeared more appealing than ever. The Boyfriend and I went to BW3's. I am such a sucker for some boneless wings with Asian Zing sauce! Darn it all! I caved. I instantly felt guilty. My problem with giving in to temptation is that when I trip, I tend to trip big time... like fall flat on your face kind of stuff. And it always seems to snowball. You get that mind-set of "well, I already cheated today so I'm not going to stay below the calories I wanted to anyway." That's always a trap for me. That's exactly the thought I was thinking a few hours after the BW3's incident when I wanted a Strawberry shake. However.... I didn't get it! Yay for at least a little bit of willpower yesterday.
Normally when I cheat on the weekends, it's really hard to get back on track on Monday. But today I did very well.
Breakfast - Yoplait yogurt and an apple (175 calories)
Lunch- Turkey sandwich on whole wheat bread w/ 100 calorie bag of popcorn. (250 calories)
Snack - Small bag of baked Lays (170 calories)
Dinner - Turkey Hot Dogs on light wheat buns w/ side of organic, steamed carrots and vegetarian baked beans. (700 calories)
Dessert: Mott's individual Strawberry Applesauce cup (50 calories)
Total today: 1345. Yay!
Now, hopefully off to bed so that I can get up and go running before work. I'm really trying, I swear.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Every pound I lose feels like encouragement. It makes me feel like I really can lose it. Small victories give you faith in yourself.
Even though I didn't do well last week, I attempted to get back on the wagon this week. I weighed myself again this morning and I've lost 5 pounds over the last 2 weeks. Yay for me!
Tonight, trying out a recipe from my new favorite blogger, Ashlee. Her recipes on her cooking blog always look so tasty and her weight-loss/fitness blog is really inspiring.
Friday, March 20, 2009
So, I did really well about 2 weeks ago. At around 1500 or less calories each day and lost 3.4 pounds that week. The next week, I fell off the wagon and barely paid any attention to what I was eating. I hadn't weighed myself since then because I was afraid because 1) I ate like crap and didn't exercise hardly at all. 2) I know I'm carrying around a bunch of water weight and stuff because I'm PMSing and feeling bloated.
This week, I am trying to get back on the wagon. I finally got one of the books I ordered in the mail "Healing Fibroids: A Doctor's Guide to a Natural cure". My new doctor (who is awesome, by the way) recommended that book. It's just that there is so much information out there and some of it's conflicting. It's just like learning information about losing weight/being healthy. You are bombarded with so many ways to make lifestyles changes to supposedly help yourself, that you know you can't possibly do them all. So, which ones do you choose?
Fibroids, for instance. To shrink, or just relieve symptoms these are some of the things they recommend:Eating organic foods. Being only a vegetarian, but some say you can't eat too much soy because that will make it grow. Doing yoga and meditation. Taking chinese herbs. Acupuncture. Taking a combination of certain vitamins. Making certain kinds of tea.
Now, there is no possible way I can do all of this. It's too expensive, too time consuming, and I just don't have the willpower to make all those changes in my life at one time. So I feel overwhelmed. And it's the same way with weight loss/healthy eating. There are so many "theories" and "programs" that can help you change your lifestyle to a healthier one. So, which one of those do you choose?
In the end, I've decided to just try to read all that information and put as much as I can into practice, even if it's in small ways. I know that it would be hard for me to afford only eating all natural, organic things. So, I've focused mainly on trying to get organic vegetables and organic chicken when I can... since I don't eat much red meat anyway and chicken is supposedly pumped full of hormones. (which I apparently already have too much off, since that's what causes the Fibroid tumors).
Anyway, I went to the grocery store Sunday night and bought organic carrots, organic, cucumbers, organic alfalfa sprouts (my fav! That I didn't know you could buy fresh at kroger!), organic apples, bagged salad, whole grain light bread, and turkey breast. It's a start. Just that cost me about 25 dollars!
I've tried to cut back on my caffeine intake, also. Since I'm a known Diet Mt. Dew addict... it has been rough.
I contemplated buying a treadmill or elliptical, but since I'm trying to save money and I already have a gym membership I've decided to wait. Instead, I bought a pair of gym shoes and have decided to take a stab at trying to run/walk every morning. I've always wanted to be a runner, but am afraid. It just seems so therapeutic. I am a very high-strung, high-stress, kinda gal. I don't want to be and I'm trying to think of methods to keep myself from getting so worked up. I have one bad ankle that never seems to want to let me run, but I'm hoping it's just weak and I'll get used to it. I also feel like I can't run because people are judging me... "Who's she kidding? At her size, she should know she can't run." or "Ew! Fat girl running, that's not a pretty sight."
But I'm trying to push all that out of my head for now and just focus on myself for a while, and not so much on other people. I feel like my health is deteriorating WAY too much for a girl my age. I'm only 26, for goodness sake! I shouldn't be having all these aches and pains and problems.
Here's hoping for a brighter future....
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
So, it's time to take inventory and recover.
After the tumor diagnosis, it became really easy to be depressed and throw caution to the wind. Nothing seemed like a big deal anymore. It was a catch 22 though. On one hand, I was feeling like I should live life to the fullest and not stress over things that wouldn't matter in the end: my weight, my debt that will probably always follow me, stress at work. However, not worrying about those things wasn't making me any happier. I basically just spent 2 weeks eating bad food, spending money frivolously, and slacking at work...... but I wasn't feeling any happier.
It turns out that I need those things to make me feel happy and productive and in control of my life. I'm not dying, so it's time to stop acting like I am! I want to lose weight and feel fabulous. I want to save money and pay off my debt so I can eventually buy things I want, like a house (or have the money to adopt a kid, if that's what comes of my tumor situation). I like working hard and taking pride in doing a job well... it makes me feel like a worthy human being.
So, I'm trying to get back on track. I've gained 5 pounds over the past 2 weeks because I was drowning my sorrows in food and alcohol. I spent money that I was intending to save, so now I've got to cut back. I slacked at work, so now I'm busy trying to catch up. The BFF, Mrs. B., put it best when she said " I really need to face the music and pay more attention to the consequences part of being an adult...". Amen, sister..... Amen.
This morning on the local radio station, the 2 female DJs were discussing weight and how most men have no perspective on what women weigh. How, if a guy hears about a girl that weighs like 200 pounds, in their heads they picture her as huge. The reality is that most women don't actually weight 120-130 pounds. Accept it guys. They asked local women to call in and say how old they were, how tall they were, and how much they weighed. It actually sounded very liberating for most of these women. Even the overweight women who called, they were congratulated on admitting the truth and and not shamed for what they weighed. In that spirit, I'm working on a separate blog entry to start my formal transition into changing my life and committing to make myself a healthier and happier person. (Don't have as much time right now, as I have a friend that will be here in about 5 minutes. haha)
Tumor Update: It's bigger than they thought, about 9 cm... the size of a softball. Which is totally freaking me out knowing that there is this thing that big living in my body. Especially considering that the average woman's uterus is only 8 cm big! My other doctor wasn't very helpful or supportive. So, long story short.... I've found a women who specializes in this type of stuff and I see her on Monday. Hopefully she will be able to answer the million questions I have about this thing.
Until next time.....
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Yup, my BFF, Anna (a.k.a.- Mrs B.) has tagged me for this little activity.
Here were the rules: Open the folder with all of your photos. Open your 6th photo folder. Take your 6th photo in that folder and blog it. Write something about it. Tag 6 fellow bloggers to do the same.
However, I don't think I really have anybody else to tag left. So, I'm skipping that part for now.
Here's the photo:
This pic is from July of 2008. This is at the Jimmy Buffet concert... which was the Most. Fun. I. EVER. Had! We were outside before the concert where there was like a little lawn festival/party going on. From right to left: Mrs. B, me, Tonja, and Tonja's boyfriend Jason.
Good times were had by all!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Oh, but it IS a tumor!
That's right kids! Ladies and Gentlemen, children of all ages, step right up and see this amazing freak of nature.... the 26 year old woman with a big ol' tumor in her uterus! Aaaaahhhhhh!!! (*children run away screaming*).
Here are the basics: I went the gyno on Tuesday, February 17th. All was going fine until she felt that my uterus was enlarged. The doc asked if I could come in the next morning for an ultrasound. I did, and they found a pretty large tumor in my uterus. And thus the devastation begins...........
I am still waiting for the official call from the doc after they examine my ultrasound pictures. But here seems to be the thoughts so far: it's a fibroid tumor. Which apparently is common in women ages 30-40 (not me) and also more common in black women (not me). So here I am a 26 year old woman who has never had any children, who could possibly have that dream ripped away from her.
I've always known that I wanted children. And to suddenly know that I may not physically be able to do that EVER in my life, feels just.... well, it's just SO UNFAIR!!!!! I know I sound like a whiny child... but it's NOT FAIR!!!! NOT FAIR AT ALL!!!!
More details later.....
Monday, January 19, 2009
So far all of my blog titles are products of Incubus lyrics. I love them.
Anyway..... many obstacles attempted to be tackled this past week. (yes, I like to make list. I am trying to be more organized in 2009).
1) Got my cat, Dexter, neutered! You have no idea how exciting this was for me. He had been spraying all over the house.... and it is the WORST possible smell you could ever imagine and really hard to get rid of. So, he's officially ball-less now (poor little guy) so yesterday I took everything I own to the laundro-mat. And I even had to throw some things away because even after washing them, they still stunk like cat pee! oh well.... EVERYTHING is clean now. And I mean EVERYTHING. I felt very accomplished.
2) I finally got rid of the clog in my bathroom sink. Sound like it's not a big deal... but trust me (And Anna knows exactly what I'm talking about), when you have lived with a clog for so long... it's so satisfying when it's finally gone!
3) Friday's are my weigh-in days. I lost 2 pounds last week! woo hoo! I didn't eat as healthy as I should have, and I didn't work out as much as I should have, but I still lost 2 pounds. It's a step in the right direction. I bought a new fancy digital scale... which somehow says I weigh 5 pounds more than my old one did.... very depressing. But I'm going to go with that. I'm still uncomfortable with telling everyone how much I weigh, but I'm hoping to get to the point soon where I can.
4) I re-decorated my bathroom. The best part of living alone.... you can decorate your bathroom in rainbow colored girlyness and people just have to deal with it, because it's MY bathroom! hee hee. See pictures below! yay! All on sale at Target!
On a side note: My boyfriend is amazing. We haven't been together that long, but it feels like we have. It's actually pretty crazy how close we are getting already... and how when I first met him I had a feeling about him. He's so sweet, caring, kind, funny, helpful, and not to mention... darn cute!!!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
First blog... lots of pressure. So I decided to follow in the footsteps of my always creative BFF (whose blog is "Breaking up with Burgers") and title it with song lyrics. Besides, music always seems to express what I am feeling much more eloquently than I can.
Introductions (They will come in handy later):
BFF #1: Anna- a.k.a. Anna-Banana. Recently married (I was the maid-of-honor). We've known each other for like 13 years or something. We're "peas in an overly analytical pod".
BFF #2: Tonja- a.k.a. Tanja. We met at work and have worked together for about 3 years now. She is getting married in September (I'm the maid-of-honor at that one too). We are less "alike" but seem to compliment each other in the ways that we differ.
My sister: Sarah-a.k.a Puddy. She's really like a best friend too now that she's gotten older. She's almost 8 years younger than me. We are finally getting to act like sisters instead of the mother/daughter thing we had going on before that. She's the silliest, greatest kid I know!
The boyfriend: Alex- a.k.a "I can't believe I am lucky enough to have this guy!" I have been though some seriously bad guys.... and I mean SERIOUSLY BAD. Not that it was all their fault. I let them get to me. But this guy... he's so different. He's spectacular... which, of course, scared the crap out of me! (More on that later).
Me: a.k.a. Samantha (Sam). I'm 26, living in a one bedroom apartment with my 2 cats, Daisy and Dexter. Work my little office job (which really gets to me sometimes). I'm pretty random sometimes. I guess you could say I'm opinionated, but not overbearing. I tend to get worked up easily over things... but I just like to call it "passionate". I'm sure you'll figure that all out as we go along.
Reason for the blogging:
Really, I don't know. Because Anna has a blog? Because I read other people's on here all the time? Because I like to write? I have issues.... don't we all? However, I feel like I have reached that point where I finally want to stop complaining about it all and start fixing it.
~I want to get my finances sorted out (damn student loans and credit cards!).
~I want my house and life to become organized.
~I want to actually make a doctor's appointment and stop being so afraid of them.
~I want to lose the weight... finally! I did lose about 35 pounds last year, but it was a very sloooooow process and I'd still like to lose at least 60 more.
It just feels like it's time to start saving myself from.... well, from myself. I need to do it before things get too out of hand. I seem to have a self-destructive thing happening sometimes. And I know that nobody else can do the work for me.... I have to do it myself.
Well... that ought to get the ball rolling and set the stage. Hopefully I won't bore people (if people even read this). I post blogs sometimes on myspace, and they seem to at least get some laughs out of people.... so I'm hopeful.
Peace Out! (Yes, I say that a lot. But not in a "I'm trying to be cool" kinda way.... more in a "yes, I'm a nerdy white girl who thinks it's funny to say" kinda way.)