Saturday, January 29, 2011


Despite what I thought was going to be a bad week last week, I ended up with a 2.6 pound loss yesterday!!!  Which means I reached my goal of at least 10 pounds lost for the month. January's total is 11.4 pounds!

Just gotta keep on going.

Saturday, January 22, 2011


The weigh-in yesterday wasn't too good. Only down 0.6 pounds, but a loss is a loss and I'll take it. Especially considering I only worked out one time during the week and had a hard time keeping my calories down like I have been.

Oh well. It's a marathon, not a sprint. As long as I keep losing weight each week then I will get to my goal eventually.

Saturday, January 15, 2011


Down another 4 pounds this week! Not sure how that's happening, but I'll take it. I'm attributing it to the fact that I've been doing so well with my eating. I haven't been exercising enough, but I'm working on that.

In other ridiculous news... I can't stop thinking about a Big Mac today! Like it's there in the back of my mind every second since I woke up! I feel like an addict. Blah. I have to push through and break these bad habits.

Another challenge will be that this weekend I have to make a birthday cake for a friend's son and it'll be tough trying to do that without taste-testing anything so as not to consume lots of needless calories.... especially since I'm a baker that typically doesn't bake using a recipe but rather just adds stuff until it tastes right.

Wish me luck!

Have a great weekend!

Monday, January 10, 2011

Stuffed mushrooms and the weekend

Super proud of myself about this past weekend. I watched my calories every day and it was probably one of the healthier weekends I've ever had. Even when we had to go out to Carrabba's Italian Grill for my future father-in-laws birthday dinner, I made healthy choices but still enjoyed my meal.  I did some elliptical on Saturday... which if you know me, you know how big a victor that is since I hate to work out on the weekends. (Who am I kidding? I hate to work out no matter what day of the week it is.)

I've been trying to find healthier meals that are also very tasty and that aren't repeated very often in order to keep the fiance satisfied. We are very different in that respect... I can eat the same thing several times a week and have no problem with it. I like a routine and a plan. While he can do that, he prefers to change things up more often. So tonight I tried out some healthy stuffed mushrooms. They actually turned out pretty good. I just threw it together.... but I think this is basically what I did.

Sam's vegetarian stuffed mushrooms:
- 6 baby portabello mushrooms
- 1/2 cup Panko bread crumbs
- 1/2 part skim mozzarella
- 1 cup spinach
- Dried onions
- 1/4 cup water
- Oregano
- Salt and pepper
- Salt free "zesty" seasoning

-Basically I cut the stems out of the mushrooms and chopped those up.
-Saute the mushroom pieces with some dried onions (I always have these on hand and hate chopping onions so there are my go to for recipes where I just need a little onion) in a non-stick pan with some fat-free cooking spray.
-Add oregano, salt, pepper, and whatever spices you like (these are just what I had on hand). I also use a lot of what I believe is a generic version of one type of "Mrs. Dash" seasoning.)
-Add spinach in with the mushrooms and onions. Cook until it's wilted.
-Add bread crumbs to pan and add water. (The bread crumbs get an almost stuffing consistency, but a little less mushy)
-Cook until all mixed together and evenly heated.

-Pre-heat oven to 375 degrees.
-Coat baking sheet with non-stick cooking spray.
-Place mushrooms on baking sheet.
-Fill each mushroom with bread crumb mixture
-Top each with part-skim mozzarella.
-Bake 10-15 minutes or until brown on top.

We ate ours with some brown rice that I had seasoned with some of the same herbs in the mushrooms.

Next time I might try changing up a few spices, but there are a lot of possibilities here.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Same old story.... hopefully a different ending.

Back on the wagon once again. Hopefully (again) this time for real. Our wedding is in a little over 10 months. I HATE my weight and how I feel lately. I totally went overboard over the holidays. I weighed in on December 31, 2010 at an embarassing motivating 236 pounds. ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS! I can't believe I let that happen. That's 24 pounds more than my lowest weight since I've had this blog.

Anyway... the fiance and I are very focused now. I am trying my best to keep myself in a good mind frame about all of this, stay positive, look at the big picture, etc.  I want to feel better. I want to like myself more. I want to love my wedding pictures and feel beautiful on my wedding day. I want to be able to enjoy my honeymoon and not be embarassed to go to the pool in my bathing suit.

I want to be healthy enough to have children and raise healthy children.

So... yeah, chugging along. 

Last week... first weigh-in of the new year, and I was down 4.2 pounds. Great way to start things off! And I've done far better this weekend than I think I have ever done any weekend in my life.

Maybe after so many attempts at this whole shenanigan I've finally learned my lesson? I know that I can't go all overboard and hardcore when it comes to weight loss. I can't be so strict on myself and not allow myself any wiggle room. I am going to eat bad things... that's all there is to it. I'm not a "clean" eater. I don't love all vegetables. I can't live without chocolate. It's just the way it is. But a bad thing here or there isn't going to be the end of the world anymore. Crap happens. But every day is a new day. As long as I get right back on track the next day, then in the end it'll all work out. I try to exercise 3 times a week. If I don't, then I don't.

I am one of those people... I get all gung-ho at the beginning and eat only 1400 calories a day and exercise 5 times a week and only eat healthy things. That last for about 3-4 weeks and then I fall off the wagon and fall HARD. So, in an effort to avoid repeating the same mistake for like the 3rd 100th time, I am going to take a different approach and accept that moderation is key here... and even small victories and small goals are still big achievements for this struggling girl.

I can do this.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


I haven't posted on here in a long time. I guess I kind of lost the motivation and didn't see much of a point... even though I do miss the blogger support that used to help keep me accountable.  :-(

I've been back on the wagon again and as always I say that this will be THE time I really stick with it.

It's late and I need to go to sleep. Maybe I'll actually update for real tomorrow, but for now I'll just say... that I'm still here.  I may not succeed often, but at least I'm constantly trying and never giving up. 

I'll figure it out one day.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

At least there has been some progress....

So, it's like a year later and I'm only a few pounds lighter, but today I realized at least there has been some unseen progress.

I started C25K again today. Week 1: Day 1. And...... it was a piece of freaking cake!!! First of all, I totally forgot how much I liked running. After how stressful my job is, it's nice to just crank up the music in my mp3 player and run the stress away. (However, I also forgot how much my left knee doesn't like running, but oh well). Second of all, I remember what it was like last year around this time when I was starting C25K for the first time ever... and It. Was. Rough. Seriously.  The first week is only 60 seconds of running, 90 seconds of walking,... alternating for 20 minutes. Last year when I started I really couldn't make it through 2 full alternations! 60 seconds of running wore me out before. Now, it's obvious to me that though I haven't overall lost much weight... my heart at least has to be a little stronger than last year.

Good job, Heart! I promise... this year I am going to try to take even better care of you!

I've been somewhat down in the dumps this week, feeling blue, etc..... so I'm just hoping for a maintain really. Sometimes just getting by is hard enough. But it's a life-long journey, that's one thing I'm sure of. And tomorrow is another day. (Yadda, Yadda, Yadda.... cliche, cliche, cliche.)

Time to sleep.  :-)