Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I blame the tumor....

I haven't blogged in a while... things are just busy and blah lately.

I haven't been keeping up with my C25K. I haven't been eating great. Somehow I have managed not to gain any weight... even lost like .4 pounds. That can probably be attributed to all the stomach problems I've had lately though. Couldn't actually keep much food in my body. I just haven't been feeling well lately (as usual).

I blame the tumor. I blame the tumor for everything these days though.The doctor has recommended that I have an abdominal myomectomy to remove it. Having major surgery scares me, but at the same time... I am so frustrated and angry about never feeling good and having this thing, that I think I'm going to just do the surgery. I'm just scared to have it because it could mean no children for me, but at this point the thing is taking up so much space that leaving it in isn't going to help me much either. (and it's making my life miserable).

That's all for now.... I'm tired and feel gross. So I'm going to eat dinner and go to bed. Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still here. Hopefully soon I'll be back to my old self.


Stormy Vawn Bradley said...

I am sorry 2 hear about your edical issues. Where are you in your c25k..? I was 2 days n2 week 2 before i had my wisdom teeth removed...so i will be starting over.

I pray you feel better soon. Glad 2 hear from you.

jo said...

Are you talking about a fibroid tumor on your uterus?

I had a myomectomy in 1993. I had a beautifuly baby boy two years later.

It is scary, it was a painful surgery for me because they couldn't get it out due to the size through my belly button, BUT life was better--so much better.

Fast forward to today: Last Monday they found three more fibroids, causing tons of troubles for me. Now I'm in my 40s and so will have either a hysterectomy or ablation. I was 28 when I had my myomectomy.

If you need someone to visit about this, let me know on my blog and I'd be happy to email with you.

jo said...

Just scrolled through your blog a bit after posting--should have done it before.

So you are 2 years younger than I was. We're pretty similar in that we were too young. I went off birth control pills when they found mine. Mine was also large, it grew really fast. When it was removed, it was the size of an orange.

It is very scary. I remember crying because I wanted children and I didn't know what to do. All turned out well for me, due to the type fibroid I had and a good surgeon. I did have to have a C-section when my son was born.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I'm very scared right now, too, not wanting to face surgery but at least I'm not facing the fertility thing all over again. That was just so difficult and painful. I feel for you.