Thursday, May 28, 2009

It's a big deal to me!

Well, I took a HUGE break from running... like a month, seriously! I was highly disappointed in myself. Since I am on vacation from work this week I decided that I had to make myself go to the gym almost everyday. Well... that didn't happen. My first trip to the gym was Wednesday (yesterday) and I tried to restart my C25K on week 3. Week 3 is 90 seconds of running, 90 seconds of walking, 3 minutes of running, 3 minutes of walking... then repeat.

Man, oh, man... it was HARD! I couldn't believe it. I left the gym feeling defeated and down, thinking to myself "I'll never be able to jog a whole mile straight. I suck." Despite all that, I got up today and was still determined to go. (Our 5K is in like a week and a half!!!). So I went, and completed week 3 with no problem! I guess my body just needed a little jump start and then it was ready to go again?

So, I completed week 3 and then decided just to run until I felt pretty winded. I made it 2/3 of a mile (8 minutes) without stopping!!! Yay for me! That's probably not a big deal to people who are in great shape... but that's a huge deal for me!!! I feel accomplished!

This weekend I am going camping with my friends and the Boyfriend. Should be fun. I hope to at least get in a little jog during the weekend. Then, when I come back I am going to try to go to the gym almost every day since the 5K is next weekend. I really want to be able to jog a whole mile before we do the 5K. I won't be able to run the whole 3.1 miles straight, but I want to finish in 45 minutes or less.

Again... Yay me! :-)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Spring Cleaning

I always feel so much happier and better when things are clean, as I'm sure a lot of people do. The ironic thing is that for as much as I hate mess, I hate cleaning just as much. My life and apartment have felt so cluttered lately... and I hate it.

So, I'm on vacation from work all week this week and have decided to accomplish all the cleaning and organizing that I had planned during my last vacation from work (during which I accomplished absolutely nothing). Yesterday was a loss. I ate WAY too much, probably gained like 3 pounds in 1 day and didn't do a whole lot besides make some rockin' healthy enchiladas for dinner.

Today I woke up early to say goodbye to the Boyfriend when he left for work, but then I couldn't fall back asleep. So I stayed up and cleaned. I washed EVERY dish I own (because most of them were dirty) and then cleaned out my fridge. Blech! I don't think I've done that since I moved in this apartment. Gross! But I did it and then washed all the resulting dirty tupperware/dishes from cleaning out the fridge. This is now what my poor, sad, empty fridge looks like.

Ah, yes.... the essentials of life: cans of Diet Mt. Dew, coffee, beer, eggs, strawberries and fat free Cool-whip. Seriously?!?! It looks like my fridge in college! Who knew I actually had so little real food in there?

I HAVE to go to the gym today. Our 5K is in less than 2 weeks. I definitely won't be able to run the whole thing. I've given up on that dream. However, I would at least like to run half of it. I gotta get a serious move on!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Biggest Loser Finale

Tara was robbed of her victory! I'm sad she didn't win. She was so close! She had won more challenges than anyone and never fell below the yellow line. I wish she had won, but she's still my favorite... and totally amazes me.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I blame the tumor....

I haven't blogged in a while... things are just busy and blah lately.

I haven't been keeping up with my C25K. I haven't been eating great. Somehow I have managed not to gain any weight... even lost like .4 pounds. That can probably be attributed to all the stomach problems I've had lately though. Couldn't actually keep much food in my body. I just haven't been feeling well lately (as usual).

I blame the tumor. I blame the tumor for everything these days though.The doctor has recommended that I have an abdominal myomectomy to remove it. Having major surgery scares me, but at the same time... I am so frustrated and angry about never feeling good and having this thing, that I think I'm going to just do the surgery. I'm just scared to have it because it could mean no children for me, but at this point the thing is taking up so much space that leaving it in isn't going to help me much either. (and it's making my life miserable).

That's all for now.... I'm tired and feel gross. So I'm going to eat dinner and go to bed. Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still here. Hopefully soon I'll be back to my old self.